Money isn't everything!

I have finally had enough of my husbands work schedule. I seriously am about to have a melt down. I am supposed to be doing school during the day while the kids are at school- but when am i supposed to get everything else that needs done done? I mean, as soon as they get home from school, I am super busy- getting dinner made, running back and forth to town, helping with homework or stupid projects that get assigned! I don't mind projects so much for the middle school kids, but when my 9 year gets the assignment to build a solar system- i think it's bullshit. Seriously- like he is gonna be able to do it?

There comes a time when you realize that money isn't that important. Sure, you have to have enough to live- but isn't that enough? I'm grateful that my husband makes great money- i am. But the cost to our family is too high now. I feel like a single mom with a checkbook. The kids only see him on weekends and on occasion very briefly through the week. I am responsible for everything here. (aside from money of course) All things kid. I have a 15 year old boy, a boy that will be 13 in a couple of weeks, a girl that will be 13 in less than a month, a soon to be 10 year old boy, and Gracie who is 7. They are good kids, really. I am constantly breaking up bickering between the 3 teens though. Lawsy jane- I can't believe how much they like to bicker. I have come to believe that they really enjoy it! They seek out ways to aggravate each other (and me in the process)!
I am not one to cry real easy. I never have been, but lately I can cry at the drop of a hat. Especially when it has to do with something coming up that I haven't planned. Like a make-up baseball game for tomorrow, or my oldest forgetting to tell me he has a school dance TOMORROW! It doesn't seem like major things, but when you have to drive 20 minutes each way, then figure out what to do with (or feel guilty for all the time the teens spend alone) the other 4 kids- it gets you down!

Sorry if I've gotten anyone "down" by this post. I'm just so overwhelmed right now-